veri personal! (=

been thinking things through..
hope should had stopped on the last day of last year..
and not extended at all..
my fault for pinning hopes again..
and yet, fell as hard..
but its okie..maybe it wasnt the right time..
or maybe he realli wasnt interested..just like how i feel towards others..
but i realli dunnoe what he wants..
accepting all those invitations i send..
but in the end, no response at all..
and he dun even looked when he walked past tcc..
so what was it all meant to be?
anyway, lots of things deleted..
no longer in the my favourite link..
no longer in msn..
higher hopes, greater disappointment..yes!
but at least ive tried..
and i guess ive gave my best as well..
and i realli hope he knows how i feel..
how happy i was always when he walked passed..
how happy i was when i knew that he accepted my friend request..
how nervous was i when i send him the message..
how sad and disappointed i was when he didnt even reply..
how much courage i took to add him again in msn..
how much time i consider in hoping again..
how happy was i when he accepted the msn even though it had already passed the dateline..
but, its still disappointment in the end..
ive told others..and they find it weird as well..
but whatever it is..maybe the time wasnt right..
i can say hope is not gone..but maybe its just that i no longer hope as much as before..
its the 1st brave thing ive ever done..yet, not being appreciated..
or even recognise..whatever..
guess i have better things to concentrate on now..
and im sure, i'll get over this soon! (=