i wanna be heartless too..

no words....
just plain silentness...

what a world?!?!?!?

IT'S SAT NIGHT and i seriously dun feel like staying at home. Gonna meet jingting and shanrong later. dearest shuxian must be sleeping already since there is no reply from her. im tired actually but i just feel like doing something outside home. haha. silly!

how i wish my brain could memorise and remember selected things. there'll be a test on lg phones next week and i think i'll just screw it up. nvr good at memorising things since dunnoe when. but some things are just so clear in my mind that i wish that the memory could be erased. those days still flashes through once in awhile, especially when im all alone. those days used to feel so true and it always put a smile to my face. but for now, it just gives mi a weird and uneasy feeling. thinking back, i dun even know what is true now. was it true then, or was it true now? what's with the sudden change? nvr like being a spare, a person who is not being appreciated. so whats the use of being nice and all but yet, people dun even appreciate it?

im starting to hate my job. the real world is realli terrible. people just want to protect themselves. saying this now, yet, saying something else the next moment. accusing mi of saying things that u didnt when what i said was exactly what u told mi. whats wrong with the world seriously?

我们到这个世界上，不是来互相伤害！

23rd!

WE CELEBRATED PRINCESS ELEE 21ST BIRTHDAY TODAY!

(wah lao, i think i typed the above sentence for like thrice lor. always accidently delete the whole sentence. DAMN PEK CEK!)

and we had dinner @ tao's.

not gonna post any photos cos im very tired and maybe a little lazy as well..

LOL!

but i assure photos will come along soooon..

because how can photos of food not be posted on my blog?

it's cheryl's blog u see..

and cheryl = FOOD! haha..

anyway, i should realli comment on tao's restaurant food.

they actually serve QUALITY FOOD can.

its realli nice lar. MI LOVE!

and not forgetting the service crew who kept us entertain.

will definitely go and dine in again.

need proof? will post photos up soon to give u the evident.

but for now, i just need to rest.

while the rest are texas pokering. *JEALOUS*

YAWEN! tell mi who won! lol...

it's a REALLI HECTIC WEEK!

this week is realli terrible torturing. things went wrong and i realli dun understand what's the fucking problem with the promoters. 1st, many of them went overseas. 2nd, many of them has what final year projects, projects and stuffs. 3rd, many of them could onli work one day, which is sunday. so that means onli a handful of promoters could work. and among this handful, several of them just MIA! i realli wish i dun have to do all these shits lar. go around BEGGING PROMOTERS TO WORK. and fucking assholes. some of them can even be sooooo rude when they are late, asking mi what i want them to do. BASTARDS LAR! he already knew that he was supposed to report @ 1045am. called him @ 11am and he havent reached and he still dares to give attitude. FUCK BALLS! seriously think that this kids should GROW UP LAR! people who dun even have manners realli TURNS MI OFF! completely. and there are some who can tell mi that they cant work cos the mother thinks that she cant wake up. wah lao.....whats wrong with the world? i dun even wanna continue.........................anyway, this weeks realli SUCKS totally. everything seems soooo wrong, so fucking wrong. nothing is even right. NOTHING! NOTHING!!!

met the girls @ the flea. sales was kinda bad cos i guess we had too much clothes. will take a photo tmr if i rmb. i miss them hell lot. how i wish i could work with this bunch of ladies. definitely makes mi million times happier. haha. im soooo mentally tired. hope i'll do things better next week. i must and i will.... (=

!@#$%^&*()

17 June 2009

today sucks totally. out of no where, this azlan come over and started commented on how clara and i work. WTF lar. he says im learning too slow, doing things too slow etc. last week is my 1st month at work and he expects mi to know how to plan depolyment LONG AGO? FUCK! and he thought that calling up all promoters and getting the deployment done is simple and needs onli one hr to complete? FUCK! and he actually thought that im always behind my desk, using my com yet doing nothing? FUCK FUCK FUCK!

why do people always expects so much from others? he may be so smart that he could pick things up fast. but im sorry, im not as smart as u. he may get used to things easily and hence, able to adapt and learn different things quickly. but im sorry again, cos im not again. so what the fuck does he have to say all those? and in the middle of the office somemore. FUCK! if he realli thinks that planning the deployment is so bloody easy and contacting promoters are easier, then bloody hell go do it himself lar. it takes two hands to clap, so if the promoters does not want to pick up my call, what the fuck can i do? all was so demoralising. and he can even complain that clara's desk is vveri messy. FUCK! what has it got to do with him again? thinking back, i seriously thinks the working environment sucks. its not bonded at all. and didnt i told roger b4 @ the interview that im NOT SOMEONE WHO IS GOOD @ MEMORISING THINGS???!???!?!!? so can that azlan give mi a little more time in getting to know more about ALLLLL LG phones. FUCK LAR! gonna be strong and more capable. gonna let that azlan know that i can meet up to his expectation and am not doing nothing in front of the computer. FUCK ASSHOLE! BASTARD!

ps: apologise for the vulgarities. (:

just make mi smile will u?

!@#$%^&*()

how i wish i could get my pay instantly! i've got my to-do/buy list. lol.

1st, feel like getting hair extention. met shu xian just now and we were talking about it excitedly. lol.

2nd, need to get my new pair of hard lens. can u believe i'd used my current pair for like almost 6 yrs? lol. new pair of hard lens will cost $400. soft lens will be $90 for 3 months. well, maybe i should get soft lens 1st lar. dun wan my eyes to get infection. lol. maybe should check out the price 1st huh?

3rd, have yet to get my DS lite. been wanting it like few few few months b4. dropped the thinking after all my friends say that i wont play it for long. but then grace jie jie has to buy it and "SIA" mi. so now, i feel like buying again. lol. I WANT TO BUY LAR! but just wondering if i have the time to play. lol.

last, i want lots and lots and lots of clothes. cleared my wardrobe like yesterday and its so empty now. it need some new clothes to fill its tummy. HAHA!

so these are the reason why i need my pay lar. can i get it like...FASTER? 18 more days....(=

you left without making things clear....

the things i hate most!

1) I realli cant stand people who DON'T ADMIT THEIR MISTAKES! come on lar..everyone makes mistakes can..just admit, say sorrie and people will help u willingly.

2) I HATE PEOPLE WHO GIVE EMPTY PROMISES OR THOSE WHO SIMPLY BREAK PROMISE! dun understand the meaning of promise?

here it is : an express assurance on which expectation is to be based. so when u make a promise, it means that u assure someone on something, and the person EXPECTS it to happen.

3)I HATE PEOPLE WHO DONT APPRECIATE OTHERS! dun they think they are selfish? when they need help or whatever shit, they just appears soooo good. but when they get what they need/want, their invisible mask will be removed! how fake!

and i just realise that its 930 already. need to bathe. last thing! u know whenever i typed or say the word "realise", it reminds mi of mr roache. cos he will go "RE-A-LISE"! lol

when this week ends, that will be the 1st month of my first job. achievements? dun realli have. but at least i manage to plan the whole deployment list last week. or maybe not all lar..almost all. HAHA! anyway, i like this new intern girl yan qi. kinda envy her cos she's definitely still in her playing age. 19 this yr, and she gave mi the veri true feeling. maybe she's just an intern that why she can behave in her true self. how i wish i could too. i miss all the powers i have in TCC. i miss gossiping and even scolding steven and all. LOL! i miss those days where i could slack a little yet being able to tell steven that i wanna slack. whatever..but i know i will get used to my new life. i HAVE to get used to it. lol.

and to miss zhuo jing ting, thanks for that conversation. haha. she told mi i shouldnt priortize someone who treat mi as an option. hen true right? haha.....so tell mi seriously, how can i not love my girlfriends? i love it when she can be so much pissed off as compared to mi when i tell her the things. haha, i guess thats what true friends/sisters does. i can wait for our dinner next week. and of cos our shopping trip when pay arrive. despite having a full time job, i still want to have a life. YEAH!

ps : da sao says i matured alot. did i? but talking to yan qi makes mi feel that way. and i actually love the feeling. lol. (=

day out with my girls! (5th June)

met the lovely girls @ bugis. dinner was @ MOF! im kinda tired so shall let the photos do the talkings...

the girls...

i know i look kinda retarded. but again, who realli cares? lol.
miss mrs. brandon! lol. hope my twin dun kill mi! (=

i think my camera kinda sucks. with flash its too bright. w/o flash its too blur. WTH!

AND THE FOOD IS ALWAYS THE MAIN OBJECTIVE..

(provided we manage to take photos b2 raping the food lar.)

this is chawamushi with CHILLI OIL. those with sesame oil kind. it realli makes the chawamushi taste so heavenly lar. i'll nvr eat it w/o chilli oil.

well, guess what are we up to?

i had a game of "scissor, paper, stone" with yawen lar. so whoever lose will have to each a piece of salmon sashimi with like..one big piece of wasabi. AND SHE LOST! lol.

and so, a close up of her face. sorrie twin. but not many knows my blog lar..so u dun have to worry that this photo will spread veri quickly. lol.

(ps : and in the end she says no kick at all. CHEY!)

while waiting for our desserts to arrive, we decided to do some advertising...

see! i told u my camera SUCKS!

AND AFTER EVERY WONDERFUL MEAL, THERE'S ALWAYS A DESSERT! OR MAYBE 2?

im so tired that i guess just from reading will know that im rushing through this post. gonna sleep cos i still have work tmr. i used to think 5.5 days are still ALRIGHT! but then, it sucks. half day gone for sat and im onli left with sun to rest.

anyway, i bought this with xiaoling. gonna see if it works. whiter teeth, better smile huh? lol.

alright, im off to bed.

and i suddenly feels a need to talk to you. despite having the feelings that i should just give up and forget about everything. i want to talk to you! pointless anyway.

some parts hurt. i dunnoe why, and i dunnoe where.

but all isnt important anymore. move on.

thats what friends are for..

everytime i feel so bad at work, i will always think about the wonderful friends i have. i know they cant be there for mi always, but u'll feel so much better knowing that somehow, they will be at somewhere else hoping that you are doing fine. always there to listen to all ur nonsense and rantings. telling you things will be better and stuff. miss zhuo xiaoling msg mi earlier on telling mi we must help each other and go through this 2 yrs together. it realli meant alot. haha. thank you girl! and of cos to the rest as well, for all my complains and rantings. and for my twin! that picture on ur blog was realli nice. LOL! every small little sentences or words realli meant so much to mi. so how can i not love you girls?

and of course my lovely family. daddy has been asking mi about how was my job and stuff. as for the rest, i know that if i ever encounter any problems, they wont hesitate to help either.

i wanna be stronger. and i wanna be someone useful! (=