my ulcer hurts! damn..

his 12 mins

HELLO STRANGER!


your that fucking 12 mins realli got mi into deep shit, got us into deep shit.
selfish, not guilty as all..
i realli want to know what you are thinking at that veri point of time.
DON'T YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCES!!!!
or that it actually creates like freaking lots of shit for others???
GOD! your 12 mins plot, dunnoe how long happiness = my shits, my headaches, my stress!
dun even name urself bastard! its too nice for a person like you! NB!!!
is money that important? or maybe something else that makes it so fun?
you better hope u dun get mi into any deep trouble stranger,
if not i swear i will curse you till im 1000 yrs! BASTARD ASS!!!!!!!



i've been seeing too many ugly humans this while..
guess god wants mi to realise that everything is possible..
every single soul is capable of doing ANYTHING!
my god my god! im totally disappointed with humans, once again...


aside to yen qi, ur eye candy najib is realli cute...
and as what u said, azri is realli the nicest! hahahahahah!

totally hate sundays!

because work resumes tmr. sianess.
slept till 530pm today. waste of time i know, but its shiokness can! lol..


i love yesterday..
met my twin at tampines mall after work..
bought a sandals from mondo and a pouch from mng.
the pouch was realli LOVE lar, love at 1st sight! lol..
yawan is such a "good" twin. she saiko mi to buy BOTH the items..
but i love her still. (=
went century sqaure arcade with her as well..
WE LOVE PLAYING PHOTO HUNT.
spend like an hour or two at one machine before jian hai came over to fetch us..
off we went to city hall to meet xiaoling and we had TAWAN CAFE for dinner..
TAIWAN still makes my day. i miss taiwan, and i seriously wanna go there again..
miss the times we spend shopping, and definitely those in te hotel rooms.....ARGH! miss miss..
then, off we went for TEXAS POKER at xiaoling's da jie house.
FUN and ADDICTIVE seriously......
left around 12, send ms lim back home while the 4 of us slack around airport starbucks.
total relieve after telling them the problems i encounter in work..
and not forget JH LEE BIG BIG secret. LOL...
i love xiaoling too, we are both being tied with that bloody contract....
i miss last night lar. BOO!
and and and, i wanna go HONG KONG at the end of this yr! WEEEE!!!

back to reality...................................

TGIF!

finally friday. nothing special though, cause i still have half day tmr.
heard from clara that ryan will be taking over LG. so what will i be doing next..
i swear this freaking issue spoils my mood.
no matter how much i wish i don't have to do deployments and stuffs, it feels weird still.



16th.

company bonding should i say?
went bowling with drivers, roger and clara. weird combination but yeah, wasnt given a choice.
i love the way how bonded the drivers are lar.
the way they laugh and play tgt. felt so true and real.
had co. dinner as well at CAUSEWAY POINT seoul garden.
damn far lar, but wasnt given a choice again. HAHA!
and having steamboat twice in a row was realli madness.
totally stink like mad after dinner.
my bag stinks like hell and my hair stinks after 2 washes.
thats how terrible it is.
i miss yan qi too. lunch without her was kinda boring.
and the outings lacks so much laughter without her.



15th.

yanqi's last day was celebrated at bugis steamboat.
not the usual on i always had, but at the one below top 1.
food was average onli, but the company improved it.




oh wells, im tired. and there's a bitter gourd bitch in the office.
FINE! they are couple u see..BOO!

AFTER THESE FEW DAYS....

i think you realli deserve a clap..

- for being such a great actor. being nice and all for nothing.

- for being such a great liar. making mi believe in you and trusting u so much.

- for being such a good company ALL of the time. but i guess i was realli just a spare to you.

i admit i enjoy those outings/conversations with you. truely enjoyed and truely happy. for at least at that time, what you said and did, i thought and believed it's true.

and should i THANK YOU as well?

- for making mi feel like a fool. but at least it makes mi stronger.

- for waking mi up. that i shouldnt trust someone so much next time. (its not that i "trust" you. it's just that you happen to make mi believe in everything you say)

- for making mi realise that it is impossible to know someone that much. cos you're doing things i never thought u would have done. and for now, i dun even know which side of you is true.

- for giving mi false hope? i'm learning not to hope for anything now.

- and lastly, for making mi feeling down and upset the past few weeks. at least you made mi realise how important friends are. its not that i've neglected them or something. just that at least no matter what, they will be there. even if i cant reach them, i know they will always be there, always......

so why should i even be bother with someone who dun even appreciate mi? i've got better things to do. anyway, it's just back to the normal life. i used to enjoy this kinda life as well, just that last time was schooling, now is working. NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE! (=

i'm feeling so weak..mentally and physically..

went to bliss cafe with kevlyn earlier on. had this top shell thingy which taste realli good. mi like. and im so freaking tired. but i dun feel like sleeping.

GUESS WHAT'S THIS?

well, i've got realli sweet friends who are afraid that i don't get to eat well while working. soooooo my twins and huijin bought mi this box full of snacks. HEN SWEET RIGHT? and when yawen passed mi this box, she told mi this. "in case that what lan dun allow mi to go off". lol. funnie. THANKS A BILLION LADIES! (=

anyway, met the twin at parkway after work. miss her alot. i miss everyone alot actually. seriously miss those days terribly. for now, eveyday seems like a torture to mi. )=
had subway with the twin. then shop around a little before heading to the arcade for photo hunt. it was fun lar, both the scolding of the machine and hunting for difference. LOL. how i wish everyday could be spent this way.

twin start work at 6pm while i laze around waiting for mummy to picked mi up. word search accompanied mi a little. saw little kids playing with the water fountain as well. how innocent. i want life like kids. back at grandpa house but i practically slept the minute i reach there lar. too tired of life.

you know im so sick and tired of life that i wish tmr dun ever come. nothing to look for. stress ahead. definitely unhappy. whats the used of looking forward to the next day? seriously considering of quitting. i think i'll just get depressed soon. i need a break, i seriously need.

some photos of sunday! at the beloved TCC(MW).

ah goh is transferring to OMB lar. so somehow, he's the main character. LOL.

mirror image
enough of ah goh! lets have more of the ladies. LOL

new pedi colours. (=

the BEST girl!

actress quek dun seems to be able to take a proper pic lor.

-TAKE 1-

-TAKE 2-

haiz, forget it. she's still better with her acting.HAHA!

people. DO ASK MI OUT MORE OFTEN! i dun wanna be alone......

this week was kinda fruitful..lets recall....

sunday was shopping day with dearest shuxian and jingting. went bugis to "bai bai" 1st cos i suddenly feels that my life just SUCKS totally. initially was supposed to go with only the two of them, but that ah miow wanted to tag along. but luckily he went, if not i will be alone! cos my dearest girls were late. lolz. ah miow and mi went to "chuo qian" as well. asked about work and some other issues. work was BAD!, and the other was rather good. but, whats the point now? anyway, shopping was a failure. each both a pair of heels and off we went for our "TAI TAI" session again. did mani and pedi to pamper our suffering legs. i had france mani tgt with shuxian. dinnered after that and guess what? me and shuxian went barefooted on the way to TCC, just because i was wearing covered shoes. LOLZ. was fun, and i realised no one realli even bothers about us at all. afterall, who ever rmbs mi, right? home sweet home after dinner and was realli shag.

monday was realli bad. clara was on MC and that bitter gourd came charging towards mi. dun let mi go back at 6pm realli SPOILS my mood. dun realli rmb what happen on monday lar, but met dearest huijin for dinner. great friends help alot. THANKS YOU MISS TAY! that night was realli appreciated deeply. I LOVE YOU!

met dearest kevlyn on wed. its been years since i last met her. had sakae sushi for dinner. (realise i always have sakae sushi when im with her) realli had a great chat with her. amazing how things are still the same. still able to talk to her like usual. didnt feel strange or whatever. anyway, her ex. is a bastard lar. 2 timer. whats wrong with these guys? whats wrong with those girls as well? and whats the fucking wrong with this world?

had a fringe trim today. and im soo sooo tired. was rather sad these few days. cant even remember when was the last time i was realli realli happy. im so tired now. and im freaking not feeling well. )=

as what jingting says, words are CHEAP! why do people even put an effort to say something which to them, doesnt mean anything? whats the point? why do people say this yet, do the same thing as well. where's the point again? why is it that people never think of others at all? why do those heartless people still enjoy and live their life as per normal while those who aint has to suffer, get hurt and go through all those shits? what is fair? im so tired that i just hope to sleep all the way, only to wake up and forget everything which is meaningless now.

hate being alone this few days. it always make mi think about useless things. who can actually accept things this way? i wasnt even given a reason lar. WTH! i didnt know it will affect mi this much. i want to be happy like before. I NEED TO BE HAPPY, i realli do......

its a long and tiring week....

TODAY!

whole co. went to watch Transformer. i know i watched it once already (preview somemore, watched it with kor kor they all), but i rather go and watch again than to stay in office alone. and its at gold class cinema eh, who wouldnt want to go right? lol. but guess what? i fell asleep in the cinema. that shows how comfortable the seats are! hahahaa..

this is yan qi!

well, thats all for today. nothing special i guess. except im not so stressed up like the week b4. (=



YESTERDAY!
went back to TCC for dinner with clara and ryan. i miss TCC so much. i miss working there, miss the smell, miss every single thing there. and eye candy is still as handsome as before. (((=


WEDNESDAY!
met weiting after work. went to tampines 1 but its totally disappointing. nothing to shop. settled at "QI JI" for dinner. their fried chicken wing never fails to make my day. BONUS! its pay day. haha...


im so tired to even blog in details. goodbye ugly humans!